“The surest love, the safest love, the purest love and the greatest love is a mom’s love.”
Can’t believe it has been a year today since you left us.
I miss you, mom,
I miss you when I wake up in the morning and don’t find you, wearing your nightgown, doing household chores. When I am ill and you are not there to make me lay in your lap, massage my forehead and stay awake the whole night with me.
I miss you when I leave home, then look back and you are not there standing at the front door to say goodbye, with a smile on your face but those eyes filled with care and worries about sending me far away from you. I still remember one day when you were not feeling well and I had to leave in the morning, I came to your room to say goodbye and asked you to go to sleep again but when I went outside and sat in the car and looked back at the front door, I saw you standing there. And that day I realized that this is what a mother’s love is – Selfless, purest and the greatest. I miss you when I come back home and find nobody waiting for me and give me a relaxing hug, that feeling of coming back home.
I miss you when nobody scolds me about waking up late in the morning. When I go to sleep at night and nobody comes to check whether I’ve gone to sleep properly or whether I am feeling cold. When nobody scolds me for being lazy and for not learning to do the household work. I miss the time when you used to wake up at midnight and come to our room and I used to hide my phone and act like I’m sleeping. And only after that you could sleep properly.
When I wear new clothes and twirl around or when I dance at a family function and don’t find you looking at me with a smiling face. I miss saying “MOM” out loud, your phone calls, the food made by you.
When we take a family picture and find it incomplete without you. I miss the time when you used to be the most excited one amongst us about clicking pictures on festivals and special occasions.
When I see nobody sitting on the couch in free time, wearing specs, doing online shopping and ask us to order clothes. I miss your smile, your laughter, you taking god’s name while taking a bath, your dancing, and singing while preparing dinner in the kitchen.
Now I realize why you asked us to be strong and be prepared for every situation when you were leaving for the hospital. You were truly a warrior and fought with cancer till the time you could, even more than that. I wish I could get some more time to spend with you in your last moments, at least more than those 3 minutes in the I.C.U. that was our last meeting and you wanted to say a lot of things to me but you couldn’t. Your eyes filled with tears said a lot that you don’t want to leave your children, that you are in a lot of pain, that you never wanted your daughter to see you in that condition. I wanted to hug you for the last time but I couldn’t.
Its said that a photograph never grows old and your photos are the only memories that are left with us now. I miss you every single damn day mom. I have missed you every single second this past one year.